starfyrenephilimwitch

There is a war ragjng,

with my sanity the coveted prize.

All I can feel is confusion,

all I can see is distortion.

This way has raged for as long as I can remember,

though in the past all I wanted was to survive.

No longer do I cower in fear,

no longer do I try and hide.

With armour I stand on the front lines,

gripping a sword that has been forged by fire.

For now I can see the war will end,

that I will win this in the end.

The warmth of summer has faded,

Persophne has returned to Hades.

The winds have started to cool,

the leaves have started to fall.

The days grow shorter,

The darkness of night stays longer.

As we enter the coldest part of the wheel,

I hope the Gods bless you and yours.

May you be able,

to keep the warmth of Aine with you.

As you walk into the darkness,

keep in mind it will pass.

A Blessed Mabon and Start to Autumn to all of you

~ Astrya

Current Mood: contemplative
Current Location: Ottawa, Ontario Canada

Somedays used to brim,

with such darkness.

Often it felt like I might drown,

as war raged for my sanity.

Rage often raced through me,

feeling as thought it had replaced my blood.

It would disaperate as quickly as it come,

a bone depth depression taking its place.

My mind had disconnected itself,

static screamed at me instead.

Days often ended in praying to a deity I didn't believe in,

that it would end.

Hope seemed to be a lofty ideal,

as I stumbled day to day.

Warmth to chase away the cold,

seemed like it would never come.

Those days seem farther and farther between,

the warmth that feels alien weaves though my being.

As the static clears as the storm seems to fade,

more and more every day.

The dawn seems like it might come,

my soul feels like its getting lighter.

As I have finally come to find,

the family and love I had been denied.

Current Mood: contemplative
Current Location: Ottawa, Ontario Canada

the waves they crash onto the shore,
washing away the last remnants of war.
The scarlet that had flowed so thickly,
no longer tainted the waters below.

The skies above are crystal clear,
as if the storm of moments earlier never existed.
A gentle breeze replaces the hurricane that was,
as it weaves its way through sea-soaked hair.

A droplet falls from tangled locks,
to cascade down bare skin as water is kissed by air.
She takes a deep, ragged breath,
green eyes alit with hope and relief.

The silence that falls,
is welcomed like a returning friend.
As every part of her,
relaxes in the moments peace.

Current Mood: calm

Ever since my therapist put me on Seroquel for my hallucinations I have enjoyed a myriad of vivid dreams (honestly I don't mind as long as I am having less hallucinations)

The other night I had a dream about what apparently was my great-granddaughter in the future, working for a company that can transfer ones consciousness into someone in the past so they can experience family events (it appeared a blood connection was the strongest way to do it) or historic events - kinda like Assassins Creed.

Last night the vivid dreaming took a different turn. It still involved the future and time travel but this time I was in the TV Show M*A*S*H, I was trying apparently to save Alan Alda's character (Hawkeye) and BJ Honeycutt from something. In the end I ended by telling Colonel Potter (after somehow convincing him I was indeed from the future) that the war would be ending soon (before the episode Goodbye, Farewell & Amen).

I am kinda into dream interpretation though have no idea what these dreams can possibly mean, though if you have a guess feel free to comment below! I would be interested in your opinions.

Well until the next vivid, intresting and amazing dream.

~Starfyre

Current Mood: amused
Current Location: Canada
Current Music: no Music but watching Dragonheart

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